Numb

Numb from my fingers down to my thumbs numb. Numb the sting in my mind when tears flow. Numb I can't move a muscle even though I might want to, numb I never know the outcome. Numb constantly feeling stressed. Numb happiness quickly slipping away. Numb close my eyes and float away. Numb a world of fun and i'm on the outside looking in. Numb my feelings are dumb, Numb I call out to no avail. Numb I am from my fingers to my thumbs and my mind won't shut off even though I want it to because my mind triggers so many emotions and for once I wish it would just stop. Stop making me cry, stop making me feel fear, stop making me compassionate when I shouldn't give a damn. Stop all the things that constantly make me numb. I want to be liberated I want to become one with myself again. Summer days slowly float away and i'm praying for fall and hoping my numbness will go away by then. Hoping that i'm welcomed by friends with opened arms and that I won't be deprived of this pressure for much longer.