No Control

I have absolutely no control
And it’s killing me,
Slowly, inch by inch.

What we often think
As home is really 
Just a trap; 

A large net that suffocates us 
Inside the cocoon. 

‘Good Luck trying to escape’
I heard the butterfly whisper, 
Before it flew away in triumph.

It’s been a while.

‘It’s just me’,
I start to think. 
I start to wonder where the rest 
Of it goes; 
Where do people 
Hide these things?

‘Maybe’
I say aloud. 
‘Maybe they’re not.

I started to kick the ground,
And rip out the grass with my bare hands.
I said some things.

I was tired. 
I begged for mercy.
I wanted my life,
I wanted to breathe.

Everyone acted like 
I was crazy
And they walked away.
But they secretly knew, 
The oppression,
The unfair judgement,
And the hatred
was killing me 
Slowly, piece by piece.

I have no control.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018

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Krampe Avatar
August 24, 2018 at 3:56 PM
That's a powerful poem, Esha.
Roper Avatar
July 27, 2018 at 6:43 PM
Congratulations on your awesome win. I enjoyed reading this well written poem with great imagery. Hugs Eve
Gentry Avatar
July 27, 2018 at 6:20 PM
Congratulations on your win. Interesting.
Lamoureux Avatar
July 26, 2018 at 8:25 AM
I enjoyed this one, congrats on your win.
Natu Avatar
July 26, 2018 at 8:56 PM
Thank you so much!
Ajmal Avatar
July 9, 2018 at 8:20 AM
Piece by piece, you are right, it kills you, making you totally hollow from inside, the best thing is to control your feelings, never to exect anything from anyone, and stay happy, find reasons to make you happy, and you will find that life surely is a enjoyable thing. Good luck and welcome to poetrysoup
Waters Avatar
July 8, 2018 at 10:11 PM
Why?
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