Night of Shame

Shut down all doors Close all windows And sit down when i narrate When i narrate the hurts of my heart The troubles of a desire A desire with no bearing and no guilt I went to mountains because I believe I climbed each day because I had a dream I sat and thought of possibilities That would conquer it all And I succeeded most of the time But this time, this time I have failed To acknowledge my true self In fact I hid her away I shut her up so good, She sat down and listened To my pleasures, good, bad, guilt She listened to all And this time, she did not voice She obeyed I was finished and in his eyes I saw that I was underneath a belt level I could not be measured, useless I was Smile, I said to comfort my cheapness I walked away; to hide away from shame Self pride, obligations, self respect all destroyed Pretty on the outside but dirty inside fun but a motive to have my soul reaped out Useless I was Your mind, your thoughts Reflect prideful Because once again, you became a Man And I, a whore Kisses and action for pleasure But once done, look away and shut down your system Painful to think, I could stand again Don't lose hope, I believed but not enough This I know Stand prideful and do a walk of shame Shame yourself, him and the night Then close the door and lock it up Zip away the key and forget Shut down all systems, and drown in success Look for no one but your true self and above all, hate love Do you believe? I have narrated