Never To Re Appear

NEVER TO RE-APPEAR Every day good people simply disappear Yet a letch like me is forced to still be here I am jealous of the ones who get themselves lost Because for me living comes at too great a cost I can’t seem to stop paying the price Even though for me every day is like rolling the dice “where the hell could he be?” I want people to ask Because just waking up is such a difficult task Most people know what their day holds in store But as for me I don’t care to be here anymore however there are ties that bind that keep me tethered somewhere Because seeing the world being polluted is something I cannot bear Before the sun says hello I’m up and cursing that I awoke My soul is hardened and my heart has been broke Broken too many times because I do things wrong So I never find a place where I really belong I’ve gotten to the place where if I meet someone sweet I try to chase her away with flames, fire and heat It’s because disappointing her is all that I fear Other people do, so like them why can’t I simply disappear? © 2011..~free poetry!~