Never Had a Dad, Never Needed One

Another poem crying about how I never had a dad, what's new? This is me talking as a grown man, not a lost youth I used to cry myself to sleep, wondering why you didn't want your son But now I know I never had a dad and never needed one Better off without you, I never had you with me I needed guidance and restrictions, but you weren't around, so I lived free Moved around Foster families and children's homes No pictures of you, I used to talk to my Eminem posters because I was feeling alone Bullied at school, I used to dream that you'd help me, and pick me up after school I was a good kid, who on occasion broke the rules You couldn't even send a card or call me on my birthday I needed fatherly advice, because I didn't know what to say to a girl on our first date But do I have any right to be mad at you for being addicted to drink When these days, I can't go a day without using the ink? Two different scenarios, but they're both addictions Depression took me hostage and closed the prison I never cried when you died, I didn't feel a loss I found my way alone, when they said I'd still be lost I've made some mistakes, but look at how far I've come I never had a dad, but I never needed one