Negativity

I don’t feel That I am Good enough; I don’t feel That I ever Can be, That I’ll Always be This ball Of negativity, That it is All I will Attract and All I will Ever get I hate that I feel this Way and it Just feeds It even more It makes me Feel that I Cannot live life And that I Will never be Okay in any way I want to Be able to Just have fun And live my Life, but I Am tied down And strapped To the ground By what I Think in my head These feelings Torture me and Never leave Me alone, Which I guess Is the only One that I Know will stay And makes me Feel worse in Every which way I’ve thought About ending it But the answer Is always the same “It’ll get better, Just you wait And see!” And I want To believe it And hold onto That last hope But these Feelings make It so hard For me to Believe And so the Cycle continues Of inner turmoil And I just Go through life In utter agony Written on January 25, 2021