My Spiritual Journey

It makes twenty years this year Since it happened, The jolt, the electric shock rather, Pushed into me and which bid me To try searching for my soul, Or, to awake to my inner consciousness, To accept the fact that this world Is not mine and that however much I try, I shall never be happy here! It makes twenty years indeed And it happened at a time when I used to call myself an atheist But I guess if the subtle powers Ruling us from far beyond the silent skies Decide to choose you, there can be no Resistance from your part! It pushed me to my knees, crying in pain, Then, it pushed me into a bottomless pit Just to see my reaction and when I Decided to let go of everything and to Surrender to that truth of life which Everyone philosophizes about, but, which No one can say for sure, for they have not Seen it for themselves, it decided to scoop me Back up to solid lands, where, it dried up my hair And patted my clothes dry and said to me "Walk, this is your path, just remember two things, The first is that it shall end somewhere someday and The second is that sometimes, the walk shall feel As pleasant as would be walking through a rose Garden but at other times, it shall be as tough As would be fighting off snakes trying to bite you!" And then, lost in the trust that my heart commanded For this power, I walked, and I have been walking since then And so far, I have expanded my knowledge of spirituality, Limiting myself not to one religion solely But feeding my thirst to know of what all These different manifestations of the same unknown Power are made of, and of course, I have deemed it best to accept that rituals, Of whatever kind, are of no use if my heart And intent would not be pure, So, as at date, I walk still, knowing not where I shall end up But, harboring no negativity in me, Not even for my enemy even if I get wronged And end up bursting into tears in the solitude Of my room! The spiritual journey is one on which I am Still embarked on and for that one, No planes or cruise ships are needed Only the mind and a good connection to the Cosmic energy that surrounds us are And of course, I hope to find opportunities to water it As I want it to bloom into an orchard Made of divine fruits which have only been heard So far on Earth but which have not been seen By anyone! Written on 7th January 2021