My Road To Perdition

It seems that I...have found myself, So lost...so sad...so afraid, Too scared to try and start again, Lest I repeat the mistakes I've made. I dread the thought of waking up, With no direction or hope inside, I've not the courage...nor the strength, And nobody in which to confide. If only I...could have been, A better husband and Dad, Now I merely take up space, Lamenting the life I had. I blame no one...I wish I could, I felt no impending doom, I simply lost...my family to, A screen name in a chat room. I can only guess...she wanted to hear, Dreams of a better life, May I take this time...to apologize, To my wonderful son and wife.