My Murderer

I cut my wrist once more Make the pain go away! But not even the sight of blood can heal this pain… I didn’t mean it I mean, I didn’t try… I mean I didn’t want to But your words drove me insane inside I couldn’t help it mom, dad Please forgive… I couldn’t help the urge The pain I didn’t feel His insults drove me insane Deep inside im still crying I still feel like im dying You still say you love him mom Do I even exist to you? Or are you blind? Cant you see the pain im going thru There were those days… Where I only wore black It was a symbol to how little life meant to me I wanted you to see mom, how I felt But you never saw Maybe you did… But you never cared You had it in your mind he’d always be there But he cheated didn’t he? He betrayed all your trust And now he wants to be my friend??? After all the damage he did… Maybe he doesn’t see either He never saw my point.. You see… With insults he raises you just ‘to be the best’ And in the end, you’ll never be like the rest Im fighting mental problems now A little voice inside my head When Im around him now That little voices is screaming ‘you gotta run. You gotta turn around. You gotta grab that knife. You can end it all right now’ But here I’ll end my story, With one question for you… Is there really life after death? If there is im in trouble Cuz when I die Im in double isn’t suicide a sin? But under the circumstances im in… If you think about…. There was no for me to win Im the murderer…not him?