My Inevitable Escape

I feel as though I'm trapped, stuck in this endless obis of darkened waterfalls falling into the depth of eternity. I scream but no sound can be heard, I stomp but nothing can be felt, I cry but feel nothing inside, the black air will absorb me whole as I take a single breath, I feel strangled... lost, hopeless with no light, what light, what is light if nothing can clear my path, Stop! Breath... In the nose out the mouth, imagine a square, imagine your happy place, think of your husband wife or kids think of the family and friends that you would miss. Stop! Think... but nothing, no words come out, no sign of a life to live. Why do you think that is? why do you feel that way? All these questions that have no response for me to say this cold dark shroud is somehow warm the comfort of the shadows is what i adore. Let it take me whole and carry me away, I don't want this life i don't want to stay. Stop! Listen... I suddenly hear a voice crying my name, let it stop, make it go away. The sadness becomes so much louder as i lay thier still 6 ft under. I left my family, friends and kids. I did it all out of selfishness A thought of no person to cry or miss. In to the darkness, into the warmth of the obis.