My Day of Being Happy

I didn't met it, not received it! my day of being happy was there! just in the air, blowing in the wind was waiting for the moment to come but I was still failing, just loosing. my me of the other day was still somewhere just chasing the opportunity of my competition. I couldn't remember well, just my first time of dating cause I've never had one I tried to put my mind in, but my heart was else where I should have seen it coming, but I failed it. This is the day of my sorrow, the opposite of what I was believing. My day of being happy, will ever come or it happened? can't remember the time, not even the day nor the year or the hour, but all I know is that! am still on that chair, that one of waiting. Yes! am still waiting, but what am I waiting for? I most of times don't believe in me, cause all I do is loosing my mind and lost in my thoughts. I may not enter, but I'll still waiting but I still can't know what,yes I lost my me. Today it shall be the day, but it is the night now! but why? I don't feel me anymore, I have to give up! no! I can't! Still loosing but I will one day not the night.