Mourning

Think I need to get my eyes checked Because I see you everywhere, but I know you are no longer here Where did you go and why did you have to leave so soon Didn't think I would have to say goodbye before noon You closed your eyes for the last time, and I still opened mine Sometimes I wish it was the other way around Instead of me going round in the same circles I need a new circle because my triangle is killing my, my, my, Me needs counseling and I need medicine I got both for a little and it helped but still I needed something more to get out of this predicament Why does heartbreak always feel so permanent Like you left me crying and time froze On pause so my tears never get the chance to falll And without water we can't grow Like a flower covered in snow It doesn't even snow in Texas But my feelings make it feel the opposite Restless nights Dreams I had to fight Just to wake up to a reality where I didn't want to be They say we all exist for a purpose But per my heart I can't find where to start I know deep down my being is art But I feel so disconnected from the creator Or maybe I'm just a mistake p.s. I hope I find out one day...