Mother's Day Not a Great Day

Mother's day Not a great day Not for me anyway I miss my mummy What she might have been But wasn't and still can't be And that hurts Will always hurt A deep wound in my heart And that's not all Then there's the years Of not being a mum tears Of hating the day And what it meant And what I wasn't sent Until one day I became a mum But not for long Suddenly mum day Brought a new stain Of loss and endless pain No child in arms Was I really a mum? I wished to feel numb Then Rachel came And the joy wiped pain For she and love are the same And this day For some time was OK But the memories still play So yes, it's still hard Though I adore her card And she makes me so proud But there's pain Always will be On this day epecially