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Song:- 1990 Mother Mother love me love me love me love me I need your love (repeat) why don't you like me? why do you hate me? why do you hit me? Mother Mother where is your love? where is the safety I think of? when I hear - Mother Mother !! Mother Mother are you mine? why don't you love me? why do you hate me? why do you hit me? Mother Mother How can I live without love? I hide in the dark I build walls in my mind For I can't believe Mother Mother You don't love me. I have posted this for others that are facing suicidal questions. This was a healing song written to release my own walls that I used to protect myself from age 4 and onwards. Was reading Daisy Tyrell request for feedback. Hope it helps a little. I could fill a book on the subject of the fight for life. Will attempt to put some in words as I can. And it is a fight - those that are willing never to surrender will live. I remember, one time - stuck in a noisy hospital wing, a friend also suicidal at same time in another city. I wrote every moment, filling a large A4 pad. On my knees, crying - I was writing " I want to live" I am willing to live. Over and over. Line after line. Page after page. Also writing to my friend - encouraging him to fight and live. I won my fight that time -but my friend did not. When I heard of his death - It put me right back in hospital again. The fight started all over again -never easy, but I won that one too and several more after that! Daisy's poem talks of wanting to find beauty within. That may not be what there is to find. A great truth is found the point of rock bottom. Mental health counsellors term it 'bedrock'. When you find bedrock -you find your truest self. It was to my great astonishment I found my bedrock housed an unquenchable spring of joy! Once I came to terms that this was the real me - I was able to identify what was capping that well of joy. It took another 15 years to free myself from all those restrictive people. Once totally free never had another mental health issue. Funny that. I have only shared this to hopefully encourage others. These times are long gone and totally cleared for me. Live a joyous, happy clownish though late starter life. Love always - Virginia

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Date: 9/21/2018 1:15:00 PM
Hello Virgina,I am so proud of you and others like you. You all came trough this as fighters and won. I am proud of all of you. Have a nice day everyone.
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Virginia Waters
Date: 9/25/2018 4:10:00 PM
Thank you Darlene -the fruits of resistance are given to others for healing, strength and empowerment. Love always - V
Date: 9/3/2018 5:36:00 PM
So sorry to hear that you had to endure stuff like this...Then again, only the strong survive... I wouldn't say this if I didn't know it from personal experience myself. All the best to you! ~ Gershon
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Virginia Waters
Date: 9/25/2018 4:08:00 PM
absolutely - always a purpose to our events.
Date: 8/24/2018 4:12:00 PM
So very sad. A mother should be the pinnacle of love. Some fall so short, they are like graves. Excellent lyrical write!
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Virginia Waters
Date: 8/25/2018 9:20:00 PM
thank you for your comment - love always - V
Date: 8/24/2018 4:24:00 AM
So heartfelt I could feel your lines, Virginia!
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Virginia Waters
Date: 8/25/2018 9:19:00 PM
thanks - a hard subject to face but sharing has always helped others to release as well.
Date: 8/23/2018 7:26:00 AM
Beautifully written I am so glad you are where you are, Virginia, in a self-nurturing, joyful place. Sometimes the things we go through were put there so we can help others, and I feel like you have done that today through this heart-felt poem which shows your kind heart and compassionate soul work. Well done, my friend. And brave!
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Virginia Waters
Date: 8/23/2018 4:38:00 PM
thank you Caren - hope it gets seen by those that need. We only develop great compassion by great suffering. Those that come with that purpose in their destiny are given intense training.

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