Caren Krutsinger Poet Free verse

Mood Swing Mania

I am going along in a happy cheerful dancing prancing skipping way
For an hour or so, enjoying daffodils and tulips, loving the warm sun.
When BAM!
It hits me. Sadness.

Depression that throws me down under a bridge with force.
I hit my head on the concrete of its suddenness, and I see stars.
Nothing is pretty now; it feels like I am wearing heavy army boots.
I do not even try to get up. What would be the use?

The day is ruined. Everyone hates me. I hate myself.
I am despondent and unhappy, and irritated. 
Nothing is right. I yell at myself.
Internally, calling myself all kinds of mean things.

Take a nap! My internal voice demands.
I take a couple of sleeping pills.
Wake up two hours later, ready to find a rainbow.
Dancing and prancing, I skip along, not ready for the next hit.

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Kim Rodrigues October 11, 2021 at 4:47 PM My day was bleck… Caren Krutsinger October 11, 2021 at 11:59 PM I am sorry Kim.

Gershon Wolf October 11, 2021 at 1:11 PM Scary stuff is all I can say... esp. with the sleeping pills added in to the volatile mix. ~ gw Caren Krutsinger October 12, 2021 at 12:00 AM Sometimes this is the only way I sleep though. It's better than NOT sleeping.

L Milton Hankins October 11, 2021 at 9:10 AM I have no idea how that must be. I am one of these disgustingly boring even-keeled people who is the same almost all of the time. I'm congenial and pleasant, even happy-go-lucky. Just don't cross me! I can take a lot, but eventually I will blow and it's not a pretty thing! Caren Krutsinger October 11, 2021 at 10:15 AM I sure do understand that too. I can go from passive to aggressive when riled.