Monster

I sometimes wonder, am I the only one to see That there's a monster who lives on the inside of me? One who tends to only grow stronger with the passing of years steadily setting a course straight towards my fears He wants for nothing but destruction & pain Constantly tearing apart everything that I gain So such is my fate to end up alone Trapped in a mind that's too far gone It's slowly detereating like infected with cancer How do I kill him? Do you know the answer? Please don't think it's funny like I'm telling a joke Cause I'm caught in a war and loosing all hope. Lord; these thoughts that I harbor-cant be on my own and no way to turn back For the chances I've blown Here I am,again I'm caught in a rut and the losses I've took Are a shot to the gut so maybe its time To face the man in the mirror put this monster to sleep and see things more clearly Forget pointing fingers,and the one who's to blame pick myself from the rut and wash off the shame stop looking to others I must stand on my feet and repent of this battle I dare not repeat! I'll never learn nuttin' if unable to grow cause we fill our own plate with the seed that we sow so if you truly desire a family & home Then let go of this Monster and stand on your own