Monologue About Her: Part Four of Four

Would I be disappointed though If this didn’t lead to more? Four years of waiting And all we have is idle conversation. Two people who changed so much That they’re barely the same people Who fell in love in the first place. What’s the point Of rekindling those old parts The parts of each other that we remember Of who we used to be Out of who we are now? Whether for better or worse We’ve changed And we can’t go back. Why am I so scared? Scared of what you think Someone who I told everything to Was honest about everything to Who I felt like my true self around Because they fit that hole in my heart Left by the last girl who did this. Will I become obsessed with you? Ruining what I have now? Taking away the happiness The stability I have now For the possibility of you Seeing me the way you used to? Am I obsessed with you? Why do I want you to be obsessed with me? Do you want the same for me? It’s not healthy for either of us. We know this But we can’t help ourselves. I can’t help myself But want you. And I hope that you Want me to. Is this the end? How does this end? With more forgotten memories? Moments that seemed so important Now flickering away into insignificance Those moments that I can’t escape from No matter how hard I try Do I want to escape from you? Am I better off forgetting you? It’s now 7 in the morning And I can’t stop thinking about you.