Moment I End My Thoughts

Every time I erase all thoughts from mind, moment I stop thinking, world comes to an end. Along with it my body, my pain, everything. This makes me think, does the world exist or is it a mere figment of imagination? Is it a dream? It seems I will wake up to find it is all gone Vanished into nothingness Am I creating so much hue and cry over a non-existent entity? When world ends in mind, I still exist I am aware of its end. I cannot see myself but am there as an awareness of an invisible entity. I am convinced I am not this body. I want to see myself now. My attachments break. I experience calm but a restlessness to see self occupies mind. I am convinced both soul and God exist. I feel if I can continue being without thoughts for long time I will see my soul. I try again and again but fail to remain without thoughts. Wish it were easier 08.10.2021 Premier contest winner 7th position