Mistaken

Mistaken I looked into your eyes and knew I would love you but I couldn't have you I was just all to mistaken so I sit in my pain in my frustration You become a part of me you will be my everything until I die and even then You are the air I breathe Yet I feel abandoned by you I will always have a fear to love you to touch you to be close As my tears roll down my cheeks I realize I'm became a part of you I can't separate myself from what I've done to you I have these dreams these fantasies of what it would be like to have you close Was I mistaken to love you for these years? Why couldn't I say something? I always froze when I was next to you. I need to break away from this tonight I ask myself is this time apart going to work out for us? I'm the one confused I say things and don't realize how they hurt and somewhat don't care You hurt me and somewhat I want to hurt you Was I mistaken? Is this a dream? Is this real? Is this just some cruel fantasy? Do I trust you? Or will you collect dust behind me in my shadow? Do I throw this away? I don't think I will trust myself with you Im trying not to let myself break but its so hard everything is taking so much from me its suffocating I wont waste myself on you ever you took so much from me when you just left I think I was mistaken when I found myself longing for you