Missing Castles

All the castles I'd longed to see, Will never stand In front of me All the knowledge I have gained, All the emotions, I have feigned And now real love To make me cry I lie in bed, I wonder why... It seems unfair, But such is life, I've suffered much, As with an unfaithful wife Those castle walls Will long outlive me, And it will come the time soon, For me to see My maker, My love's faker Heartbreaker, Soul taker But I have my one Ace in the hole, I've kept one piece Of me that's whole That part of me That believes in me And no matter What others see This part is mine, And mine alone, And surely I'll have Sins to atone, But this one part, Unassailable, Believes in me, And it knows, I never hurt anyone, For I chose To do what seemed right And moral too, And though I'd fight, To prove it true, I tried to do My very best, I tried to pass My soul's real test, If I failed, It was by mistake, All I wanted, Was a smile to make.