Misery and Other Gripes

I went to sleep lonely And woke up the same Hopefully I'll shake off This new, acute pain My good day last week Seems very much in the past I'm maybe just fed up Or perhaps sinking fast I've been here before I'll likely cheer up Some distraction will arrive To fill up my cup I don't feel my lonely Is totally within reach I'm scared of this lonely It feels like grief Maybe I've lost something Some part of me Maybe it's always been missing And only now do I see I can't find the comfort My heart needs to heal I'm trapped bearing feelings That weigh too much to feel It's like a galloping horse Let loose in my chest A tired out feeling That remains after rest My eyes don't want to Awake from a blink A supine position Hurting to think It'll lift in a moment Like it has done before My heart knows the combination To this cell door Feelings are strange The rhyme and meter escape Rhythmic quiet The day trundles past Keep on my coat Incase I feel inclined To go out Out from myself But I take myself along Who or what lifts this cloud Minute adoration A friendly word Winning a contest Finding a friend Fixing a problem Walking the dog Eating healthy Taking vitamins Singing out loud Sitting in silence 24 hours and the mood might break It swished out of sight briefly before Not only that but I'm becoming a bore