Mirage

I had a dream I was lost in the desert I saw your face within the sand dunes I ran to you, carrying my sorrow Hope was filling my bones Tears were watering the drought of my emotions I was standing beside you But you were a mirage And I was all alone once again That’s when my eyes started to hit my cheeks with guilt My depth burnt with the words you blazed Blaming me wasn’t enough So you woke up my trauma Now I'm living with that fear Of losing my hope someday Even though it’s already gone So far away Still I need to hear your soul Tell me you crave for my love Say you do Tell me you care, clamor it loudly to the crowd Look me in the eye Say you need me closer Tell me we won’t die And when it gets harder We’ll make it easier Please tell me why my heart’s still invisible You walked nearby It called you, you didn’t hear So it cuddled you, but you couldn’t feel Rashly, you pushed it, it fell You crushed it, you didn’t even notice You kept moving and it didn’t dare to grumble Was it a dream or I’m denying this reality My love, is it true I heard that you came across your euphoria Somehow you got helped You got what you deserve Those emotions I couldn’t serve When you were crawling apart Now I'm feeling so numb My soul is nowhere to be found I'm chasing your shadow But it keeps fluttering into the wild murky yonder I need your light in the night To rewind those memories we’ve made When our hearts were hard to separate Because darling, I don’t plan to live forever If we aren’t graying together And if missing you is a felony Then I declare myself a perfect sinner For loving you with hunger Waiting for you on fire Knowing that you will never come back to my cavern Where I’m mummified with guilt and so much regret