Mental Illness
I can't care enough to get out of bed,
and I try my best, to lift my head. It
really feels like, it's only me, and how
I'm just split, just split in between. I
worry too much, for the little I do,
panic attacks, and the changes of
mood. I have sleepless nights, and I'm
dead in the day, life without living, not
sure if I'll stay. The days when I'm here,
I'm mentally drained, the bags under
my eyes, they're hiding the pain. It's an
endless fight, being dead and alive, and
with all of my might, to be normal, I
strive. I bite at my fingers, and pull my
hair, grasping for comfort, with just a
blank stare. Late in the nights, when
I'm crying alone, the demons come out,
wanting me to atone. I'm afraid to talk,
and my trust is pain, It hurts to walk,
and my soul feels so plain. So I lie
about my feelings, lie about my head,
when all I want is happiness, when all I
want is for this to end. I say I'm fine,
when I'm really breaking, shattering
slowly, you say I'm changing. An
emotional strain, on you and on me, I
don't want to hurt you, please can't you
see? There's so many things just
weighing me down, stepping me over,
and making me drown. I'm not trying
to feel, like there's nothing for me, it's
just my brain, and just what I've seen.
Copyright © Emily Workman | Year Posted 2016
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