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Measuring Years

"measuring years"

how do I measure the years
do I start at the beginning or the end
will it cover the many tears
anger and bitterness I will not defend
just let me be to have my mind
as the years of pain are intertwined
years one and two and counting are gone
I know there will be a new dawn
I know all has been rearranged
as I somehow become withdrawn
life has changed

I manage to get through the years
as I learn to pretend
and somehow work through all the fears
still anger and bitterness I will not defend
I sit and watch my life being defined
through all the years combined
with all the medical treatment undergone
the curtain of life is being drawn
I am told everything is unchanged
yet I remain withdrawn
life has changed

time passes as I hide the tears
a new life is always around the bend
month after month until it becomes years
while on the physical and emotional mend
space and air seem confined
as the life once lived is behind
and the feeling is of being alone
all that is needed is for the anger to be gone
I look in the mirror and see I have aged
for no reason I lash out at everyone
life has changed

a new day begins after four and five years
the years one two and three are seen to the end
still there are days of tears
still there is anger and bitterness I will not defend
it is hard for the mind and body to unwind
as I continue to watch the life I left behind
I keep searching for a new milestone
with every being in my bone
I feel I have been shortchanged
that the world has won
life has changed

now is the time of six and counting years
will I ever reach the changing bend
will this altering life stop the tears
my life of old I will not pretend
years of passing are still intertwined
and my being today is how I am defined
it is true that yesterday is gone
I cannot let bitterness continue to be drawn
my view of life must be rearranged
and view the paintings of a new dawn
life has changed

now the story has been told
as measuring years is getting old
I continue to search for a new view
as there is so much to attend to
while life has been rearranged
this is certainly true
life has changed

 SkyWatcher -  10-08-08

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Judy Ball Date: 3/4/2017 12:30:00 AM Great job here Lisa. I think we all feel that from time to time through life we have all been short changed. I know I have but all in all I think I have come off pretty well through life. Some things good some not so much but God is good and helps us through the bad times. God Bless, JB Login to Reply Lisa Ricci Date: 3/4/2017 4:06:00 AM Thank you very much Judy. Your review is very generous and I appreciate your intake on the entry and of life. Yes, God does help us through the bad times. He is always there. Blessings back to you and thank you again.

Darren White Date: 3/3/2017 11:50:00 PM I forgot to tell you that the form you used was executed impeccably... I am so impressed :) Login to Reply Lisa Ricci Date: 3/4/2017 4:04:00 AM My goodness Darren. Thank you very much. Coming from a writer such as you I am honored. Honestly. Thank you again. I have to admit however this format of the chant royal is quite an undertaking and takes a few moments to execute. Have a great day.

Darren White Date: 3/3/2017 1:58:00 PM I can relate to this so much. I am still in so many stages you mention, so much grief, anger, fear, sometimes bitterness and despair. But also love, friendship and acceptance. They often follow each other in rapid succession. I hope that one day I will wake up and accept myself fully the way I am. That will take a lot of work, and a lot of poetry (I use poetry to get my thoughts and feelings under control) Login to Reply Lisa Ricci Date: 3/3/2017 3:01:00 PM Hi Darren. I hope this entry wasn't too painful to read. I know from experience reliving thoughts can be difficult. Words can not express my appreciation and thankfulness for such a review with commentary that I do not take lightly. Honestly. Have a good weekend Darren

Chris Green Date: 3/3/2017 11:13:00 AM Definitely a deep and thought provoking poem Lisa. What can I say about this, there is a piece of this that I am sure every one who reads can relate to. Maybe the early years, maybe the later years, but no one is immune to the ticking clock and you have expressed so many emotions on the subject. This was a fantastic piece of writing and deeply profound. I wish I had written this. Login to Reply Lisa Ricci Date: 3/3/2017 1:39:00 PM Wow, thank you Chris. Can I bottle up this review of your intake and thoughts of the entry. I am honored. Honestly. I wrote this entry back in 2008 but the clock still runs. This format was quite the undertaking. Enjoy the rest of the day and weekend also.

Charmaine Chircop Date: 3/3/2017 8:02:00 AM Life changes..at times in ways that make us happy..Other times in ways that make us cry..Or ask Why..Life changes..but no matter what We pass through..There is always something for our own good behind every experience..Happy moments will make us fulfilled..Other sad or Hard times will make us strong..We always achieve something.Ageing is a blessing indeed..and its always beautiful that we can wake up..Write poetry..Meet new friends and be able to breathe..This poem is so deep..Am touched Lisa Login to Reply Lisa Ricci Date: 3/3/2017 1:32:00 PM Wow Charmaine I very much agree with your words of life. How very true. I am honored by your intake commentary and your generosity. All are so appreciated. Honestly. Thank you very much.