Me

I wish that I could tell you why I feel the need to cry. Nothing matters, I just don't care, I don't know why. I guess I hate myself more than anyone can know. I know my family loves me so I can never let it show. I know it makes no sense to any one but me. I'm sad, I'm mad, I'm hurt, I just wish I could be free. If he only knew what was in my heart, he'd know. that no one is more disgusted, he'd see why I'm so low. The thing I look forward to is going into the light. I know then I'll be happy, everything'll finally be alright. I wish that I could be the person you want me to be. I just don't have the energy to try to become a new ME. I love my family more than any of you will ever know. My heart's just so sad so of course it does't show. I promise when I leave this world, I won't be far away. Just think of me and I'll be there, every single day. Sparkles on the ocean and diamonds in the snow. That's me with the angels finally smiling, that I know So don't be sad, I'll be happier than I have ever been. And soon we'll be together, and all will be serene.