Love's Touch

I had hoped that at the end of it all, I would be able to move on. I intended to walk away, standing tall. But any optimism I had is gone. I knew that I would get through the events that caused my pain. It is the only thing that I could do, if I wanted to be able to have a life again. I wanted to know love once more, to find that " significant other". But fate decide to close that door, for me, there would not be another. The damage done to my soul, my heart, has been too much to repair. I came close to falling apart, I didn't, but I have nothing to share. How can I put myself out there, when all of my instincts say no? Let my emotions lead me somewhere, that now I am afraid to go. I wanted to feel again, love's touch, to welcome it without concern. But the residual effects have been too much. A lesson that I didn't want to learn Sadly, I am trying to set it aside. contemplating living my life alone. The dream of finding love has died, my heart will now remain, only mine to own.