Lost Memories

My past resources have gone to waste. A fledging youth has departed in haste. Substances taken as a teen have wiped the slate clean. Memories of yesterday have been displaced. Discarded is all hope of return. Passions remain deep where they burn. I struggle to recall what led to my downfall. I persevere hopelessly. Where am I to turn? I have tolerated nonsensical and inane. They have practically rendered me insane. Each lost thought has left me distraught. In which alternatives can I regain?