Lost

I lost myself ten years ago. Disconnected to the me I know. Hearing others as if from far away. Wanting to leave this world, I went astray. The body can only take so much. My heart in the end was fit to burst. Emotional pain from long term abuse. Mental torment so obtuse. In the end I kicked him out. "Pack your stuff and leave" I shout. Like a little seedling I have sprouted a muse, a voice, my poems touted. Thankfully love from those who love me gave birth to the me you now see. Home at last, no longer lost. Ten years to heal, but worth the cost.

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Line Gauthier

Date: 11/18/2017 9:19:00 PM

Wonderful and powerful write. Congrats on your win, Jean.

Jean Murray
Date: 11/19/2017 5:01:00 AM

Thank you Line. Where deep hurts are concerned, poetry is the elevator that brings them to my surface.

Jan Allison

Date: 10/29/2017 7:25:00 AM

It takes courage to walk away Jean and now you are flying high like a beautiful butterfly who has finally emerged from the constraints of a dark cocoon - congrats on your win:-) hugs jan xx

Jean Murray
Date: 10/29/2017 7:56:00 AM

Such beautiful imagery Jan, and so spot on. Thank you for being a part of that healing process. Hugs.

Brian Davey

Date: 10/26/2017 7:17:00 PM

A wonderful insight to your life and loved ones in this write, congrats on your placement

Jean Murray
Date: 10/27/2017 1:41:00 AM

Thank you Brian.

Sandra Haight

Date: 10/26/2017 4:44:00 PM

A powerful poem, Jean. A two-fold congratulation to you for your breaking free and for the fine placement of your poem where you shared about doing so. Hugs, Sandra

Jean Murray
Date: 10/26/2017 5:09:00 PM

On reflection it is amazing Sandra. It had got to the point when in company I was always mute while he was always in full flow. That's seems hard to believe now, when I am so in love with words. Thank you for your visit.

Agnes Krampe

Date: 10/25/2017 6:01:00 PM

Congrats on your win, Jean. If this is autobiographical, then also congrats on your healing and recovery. You are a brave woman.

Jean Murray
Date: 10/25/2017 6:06:00 PM

Thank you Agnes. Yes it is and thank you again. And lastly yes, I must be .

Charlie Smith

Date: 10/25/2017 8:35:00 AM

Congratulations Jean, for more than one reason...

Jean Murray
Date: 10/25/2017 8:55:00 AM

Thank you Charlie. I appreciate that.

Eve Roper

Date: 10/24/2017 8:01:00 PM

Back to congratulate you on your win hugs Eve

Jean Murray
Date: 10/25/2017 1:28:00 AM

Good morning Eve. Thank you again. I'm delighted with myself.

Eve Roper

Date: 10/13/2017 3:55:00 PM

Nicely done,Jean, I did that with my first husband... ooppss ;) I wasn't suppose to say that,but good riddance .I am for the better of it Hugs Eve ~`*

Jean Murray
Date: 10/13/2017 4:06:00 PM

Good for you Eve. It takes courage. I hope you are having a nice evening.

Cona Adams

Date: 10/4/2017 7:17:00 AM

My hat is off to you, Jean, for having the courage to chart your own path. Blessings.

Jean Murray
Date: 10/4/2017 8:37:00 AM

Thank you Cona. I am blessed.

Barry Stebbings

Date: 10/1/2017 2:01:00 PM

Beautiful, Jean. It is good to reach a place where you can say, 'I have made it.' // Barry.

Jean Murray
Date: 10/1/2017 2:10:00 PM

Thank you Barry. I'm sure there will be plenty of challenges up ahead but I'm in a good space now to tackle them head on.

Arturo Michael

Date: 10/1/2017 4:25:00 AM

Good morning Jean...Just passing by to say hello and send you a smile...Your poem is uplifting, you did it... Have a nice day

Jean Murray
Date: 10/1/2017 4:38:00 AM

In Ireland we say "Top of the morning to you" and the reply is "And the rest of the day to you." A translation of a Gaelic greeting. I am smiling at your smile Arturo. Thank you for calling in. And yes.....I DID IT !!!

Darren White

Date: 9/30/2017 3:54:00 AM

Here is a hug for you, you made it. Not easy, I know, but you did.

Jean Murray
Date: 9/30/2017 4:02:00 AM

Thank you Darren. I hug you too.

Anne-Lise Andresen

Date: 9/29/2017 12:04:00 PM

- A part of your life ... a part of your children ... a part of your past ... once loved ... will forever be a part of your heart - A deeply moving poem, Jean - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Jean Murray
Date: 9/29/2017 3:19:00 PM

I love your hugs!!

Dale Gregory Cozart

Date: 9/29/2017 11:43:00 AM

This is awesome!

Jean Murray
Date: 9/29/2017 3:18:00 PM

Thank you for saying so Dale.

Silent One

Date: 9/29/2017 8:56:00 AM

Oh this is so sad Jean, a very emotional poem.. Sometimes it takes so long to heal, sometimes we never heal, just learn how to deal with the pain.. One of your finest writes..

Jean Murray
Date: 9/29/2017 9:57:00 AM

Aw Silent, that's so sweet of you to say. You already know my open book. Here's hoping for a happy ending.

Vijay Pandit

Date: 9/29/2017 8:23:00 AM

Written and delivered with skill-- a touching poem!

Jean Murray
Date: 9/29/2017 8:40:00 AM

Me in a nutshell Vijay. Love your lovely visits. Thank you.

Kim Rodrigues

Date: 9/29/2017 6:36:00 AM

I think in youth, we hope things will change, and sometimes they do, but when they don't we must push back. I used to think my daughter was her "adult self" but when she was divorced I found my daughter again. Glad you are have healed. Blessings, dear Jean!

Jean Murray
Date: 9/29/2017 6:52:00 AM

Oh Kim, you heart has heard mine. I cried in my mother's arms the day before I wed, knowing . She said it was just nerves. So that day, 23 years later, when she said we should split, was the day he got the boot. I consider it her parting gift to me. She died from melanoma 3 months later.