Lost

it’s been one month since the time has past if i knew that time i held you would’ve been my last i would’ve dug my claws in to never let you go my days are cold and my nights are alone I wish you never left that night. and I wish you would’ve stayed and that we finished that fight and we could’ve behaved because now we’re individuals own groups, own circles and yet i can’t go to sleep because i’m still up hurting it doesn’t mean it was a mistake or that it’s not worth it but i look back on memories and I view them as perfect and in reality that not what it was. I wish that i treated you better i feel so much regret for not opening up and getting it off my chest. you once said ‘you just don’t get it, i don’t know how else to explain it to you’ I understood what you said and if i am being so true my honest word is i couldn’t express myself to you i tried as hard as i could yet my efforts we’re no good. after our breakup i was worried for your health i wanted to reach out and to try to help but i know you’re working on yourself. it’s hard for me to move on it’s a process full of pain but i know it’s the right thing to do not in my heart, but in my brain. i hope you’re doing okay i mean, as well as you can i hope one day you can go off and find the right man who gives you what you deserve because even though you can’t right now i can see your self worth. i hope he can be like me and make you the centre of his world and even though not mine to me, you’re still more way more than just a girl.