Lost

I am lost in a fog and I can't find my way Some of my fears it's hard to say I sometimes wonder who I am is it enough I sometimes think that my life is so tough I look around me everyday and see no end A knife or blade, medicine are ways sometimes I think To end my life in a blink To see my blood as it runs down the drain I am lost in a fog and sometimes it hurts To feel so alone unvoiced is my pain Why am I different I want to ask Is it because I am gay I shout and I scream I feel like I'm dying like I can't breathe As I leave the house and the safety of it's walls Is it because I look the way that I do Tall and fat, balding on top Why should I care I want to scoff People have judged me all of my life and I all can do is care what they say I'm ugly and dumb or freaky and mad It makes me think that it can't get worse Then I panic and it seems so hazy The fog is around me they call out my name Just lay down, and forget all those doubts Rest and Sleep forget what they say I'm lost in the fog and I'm getting so scared I wonder will someone show me the way To show me compassion and give me a line To find my way from the deep and dark fog I am lost in a fog and I can't find my way Please someone help me someway