Living In Fear

How do I handle, the devastating cost? Of innocent lives, that have heartbreakingly been lost! I chose to defend, my country for you, Now I have done, all I can possibly do. I’ve seen atrocities, I’ve killed other men, I’m back home now, but I dream of it now and then. I wake up screaming in the middle of the night, My family can’t sleep, because they’re filled with fright. Every single day, I live with my fears, No one will see me, when I shed unmanly tears. You’ve left me to suffer and to fend for myself, Now I’m exhausted and broken, you’ve put me on the shelf. I’m no longer of use to you, with my battle scars, Mine aren’t visible, I keep them locked behind bars. I don’t want to discuss them, why can’t you just see, I won’t start popping pills, please just let me be. At least you can sleep at night, in your nice warm bed, As for me I just lie here, with disturbing visions in my head. I will get through it, I will find my own way, I have to live with this now, every minute of every day. So when you next recruit someone, please remember me, Don’t just tell them, “What will be, will be”. Give them the facts, be honest, open and true, When they come home from war, make sure you see them through.