Life Is Funny

I am always so insecure about myself and my relationships. I always think my biggest fear is going to happen. That they are going to leave, going to go. Maybe I am crazy, and maybe I am insane. But if this feeling of deep depression is going to be there. I hate it. I hate myself for pushing everyone away. I hate everyone else for leaving. I hate the world for being cruel I hate the universe for hating me. I hate life for being there. I am falling in love with him, but I don't know if its enough to get me out of this deep depression state. My arms have my battle wounds from the wars with myself. My mind was the ground for which all the battles took place. And my happiness paid the price. Does anyone see, Does anyone hear. Does anyone know Does anyone care? The answer is in the hands of others. The answer? What is the answer? Life is funny, It can all be gone in an instant.