Life As a Ghost

I thought maybe I can get through this by putting my thoughts to rhyme maybe doing so will bring me some clarity a method to ease and help focus my mind. Here goes......... If this is life I don't want it If this is life count me out If this is life I don't want it I just want to scream and shout I dream of petrol and lighters Of Trains Bridges and Canals Of ropes and chains and hanging But these dreams have all come from hell They seem to offer a way out a way out when all else seems lost a way to bring peace and silence but a way with an ultimate cost A failure in life is my reason A failure in dreams and hope A failure to fit in society A failure of trying to cope I can imagine the comments you're all writing quoting of others who are all worse off and maybe in reality I am guilty but in my confused mind I am not Its hard to write down my feelings to post them and put them on show You'll all think He's seeking attention you may be right I don't know. But how else can I try to fight this of feeling so down and so low Since trying on my own is a failure maybe I should give up and just go. All that I know is I hate this I just want to stop and get off to take away my perceived pressures to bring it all to a stop But I guess I will just turn over and try to return to my sleep where worlds seem oh so much better a place where I rarely weep Only time will tell if its successful that's if I have the balls to post or maybe I will just turn over and return to my life as a ghost. Written and composed by Mark Longson (c)2017 All Rights reserved.......