Letter To My Dead Dad

Dear dad I knew you were struggling. I knew you had a bug in you that you had to feed I knew you tried your hardest to be the best man that you could be. And I knew you were running away from reality but at the time I just didn't understand. I didn't understand why you chose that poison over me. And to be honest I didn't want to understand because in my mind no reason would have been a good enough reason for me. I wanted your love , your hugs , and your sober mind. But all you kept giving was drowsiness, stolen things , and hospital trips. I hated you back than, but it took me awhile to realize that, that was the time I should have given you all my love. I know that you needed it. You were hurting and all I kept doing was bringing you down. Pushing so much hatred on you I knew that was the source of your frown But it didn't matter to me Because as the drugs started Working You began not to feel A thing And the more numb you got The more pain I felt You ran away from life While I ran away from you I'm sorry I hope one day you can Forgive me You're only daughter Dang you must have Missed me Sincerely, Daddy's little girl