Letter To My Dead Dad
Dear dad
I knew you were struggling.
I knew you had a bug in you that
you had to feed
I knew you tried your hardest to be the
best man that you could be.
And I knew you were running away from
reality
but at the time I just didn't understand.
I didn't understand
why you chose that poison over me.
And to be honest I didn't want to understand
because in my mind no reason
would have been a good enough
reason for me.
I wanted your love ,
your hugs ,
and your sober mind.
But all you kept giving was
drowsiness,
stolen things ,
and hospital trips.
I hated you back than,
but it took me awhile to realize
that,
that was the time
I should have given you all my love.
I know that you needed it.
You were hurting and all
I kept doing was bringing you down.
Pushing so much hatred on you
I knew that was the source of your frown
But it didn't matter to me
Because as the drugs started
Working
You began not to feel
A thing
And the more numb you got
The more pain I felt
You ran away from life
While I ran away from you
I'm sorry
I hope one day you can
Forgive me
You're only daughter
Dang you must have
Missed me
Sincerely, Daddy's little girl
Copyright © Ceeairra Taylor | Year Posted 2017
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