Letter To Me

Dear self-conscious, enthusiastic, helper girl, My words of advice to you are to take one day at a time. For even your worst day, is only 24 hours. There are so many times you will feel trapped, helpless & broken. But trust me, you are not. The sun will come up again & the dark clouds will blow away. You are more put together than many adults I know, now. You just have a difficult time hiding. And there is no shame in being yourself. Cry if you have to. Do not feel guilty for it. And do not try to fake yourself into being happy when you're not. It can lead you to a world of troubles. There will be a time where you feel you have lost a great Love. A time where you are so anxious you will vomit at the thought of leaving the house. You must go on. On this path no One can help you with, and you must go alone. Know deep down that all you will ever truly need is yourself. It will be a hard lesson to learn, but you will get there. People who judge or blame you feel blame themselves & covet your deep ability to Love others. Do not let them break your heart or question yourself. This trial will one day be one of your defining moments. At work, trust yourself. You have great instincts & a natural ability for splinting. Also, people just flat out like & admire your charm. You're a natural! Stop apologizing. There will be times when supervisors will overwork you, ask personal favors or treat you unfairly, but this will only make you a better therapist. Take each new patient and building as a journey. And stop to think about how many lives you've changed once in a while. Stay close with your mentors & mother-like boss for they will become your true friends. In friendships, don't waste time with people who only seek to bring you down. You are so busy trying to please others that sometimes you will trust a manipulator or a taker for a Friend. And when they let you down, don't give them second & third chances. Real friends don't need them. Some of the needless fights you have are because you shine brightly & others would rather bring you down than try to shine brighter. Keep the close friends you've made through the hard times close, for they will never abandon you. They Love you despite your flaws & would never scoff at your Happiness. In Love, please stop replaying the past & your own decisions. You made them because they were right for you at the time. The Love you felt was real, however sometimes it's just two people crossing paths. Their futures are at times too different to coincide again. But Love is Forever & there is nothing wrong with letting go of a future with someone because you want a different ending for yourself. It's your life, you can make your own destiny! Also, don't write off a potential Love because they feel or think differently than you do. After all, the personal waiting at the altar to marry you will not be your twin. But He will be dependable, honest & loyal. He will appreciate you for you & want the same things out of life. You deserve it. You'll know him when you see him. So like I said, One day at a time. I Love you, Mazzie