Let It Be
Letting go seemed so hard, truth be told it hurt like hell-
letting go was just so hard, but I have a tale to tell.
The glory of my story is a common one at best-
but honestly, I’ll tell you, this was my greatest test.
Conceiving wasn’t in my cards but we tried anyway,
the doctors and test results said what we couldn’t say-
We’d dreamed of having a family of our own one day,
a little babe to hold so dear, to giggle with and play.
One warm morning in June we saw two pink lines,
a baby we would have, it was definitely a sign-
Pretty soon I’d hold a little girl or boy that was mine,
a fussy and sassy one, like daddy it would whine.
Excitement became our days as we planned for three,
I hoped she'd be a brown eyed girl just like me-
in my fifth month the doctor saw something I didn’t see,
the little girl I was to raise had no heartbeat,
oh...my sweet Marie.
Introspection you asked, so I’ll give you what I know,
I no longer had a life in my womb that would grow-
But my darkest days were to come, and they came slow,
I had to be a strong motherly woman trying to let go.
I felt no desire to live, wanted to give up and die,
for I had nothing to want or need, just to lay and cry-
I never got the chance to welcome her and say, “hi”,
I was only able to bury her and forced to say goodbye.
I was told I could not conceive so why was I so sad?
I should’ve been grateful I had the five months I had-
I tried so hard to move on, but I was just so mad,
my sweet Marie was my heart, the pain just too bad.
About two years later I finally felt the will to be free,
for it was then I saw things I never thought I’d see-
Cuz’ pretty soon, once again, we’d have a family of three,
it was at that moment I decided it was time to LET IT BE.
No longer would I have the pain to constantly think,
no more anger and blame, no longer would I sink-
I was so close to the end, living a life on the brink,
I’d have another daughter again, my blues turned to pink.
When the stillness kept me calm and I felt at complete ease,
it was at that moment I LET IT BE, as my anguish did cease.
LET IT BE
August 24, 2017
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