Killing My Other Me

I'm contemplating killing my other me,
The one who fronts for the five figure manager at Ruby Tuesday for a job,
Struggling to tie loose ends, so my ends don't meet.
Strangers they are, Me and I, I and Me,
And there is a sharp turn ahead, 
So I can't see our future.
Contemplating offing that sucka!
An actor, he can accurately depict whatever you want him to,
A puppet for a crowd full of the wealthy and snobby,
And I, the weak minded puppeteer of financial slavery?
Broke brotha representa?
Am real.
Seriously contemplating killing my other me,
I mean getting him good for all the eggshells he left in the batter,
There's no way I'm getting cake!
I mean the ladies would dig I,
Maybe even marry a brotha, but me?
This dude falls back and plays chill for no reason,
While the girls are just teasing, begging me please come see!
He tries to wait, and play it smart, but the game ends before he begins...
I'm contemplating killing my other me,
He has no purpose, no drive, stuck on the side of life's highway with his hazards on,
Dormant, while my friends pass by,
I have no clue where I'm going, 
But I sit in the passenger seat while this fool puts nowhere in the GPS,
Stressed because I am me and he seems confident in us...
I trust the untrustworthy with my most valued possession,
Life.
So death should come to me...
And it will when i sense the urge to kill, 
But for now...
I'm just contemplating killing my other me.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Eggins Avatar
August 8, 2009 at 3:05 AM
Wow this could relate to so many situations mental health , or just plan insecurity this is a poem that most people can relate to ... congrates on being featured this week Love Jayne x x
Bonnette Avatar
August 5, 2009 at 11:43 PM
I, along with others, can relate to this oh so well. I couldn't put it any better! When I see the line, "Contemplating killing my other me" I think of liking yourself while not liking BEING myself.
Sandoval Avatar
August 5, 2009 at 7:17 PM
I love the eggshells in the batter! You had enough drive to create that perspective poem, so maybe the other half isn't so bad :) I can relate
Jordan Avatar
August 3, 2009 at 8:28 PM
Joshua - Congratulations on having your poetry featured this week – God Bless, MJ
Brown Avatar
August 3, 2009 at 4:16 PM
Congratulations on your well deserved poetry being selected to be featured this week . Love, Carol
Pickett Avatar
August 3, 2009 at 1:22 PM
AWESOME write Joshua...... I may have found another fav ..... I am a huge fan of Outkast, thier poetry is utterly amazing.... I must say man, if this is a poster of whats to come, then I may have found another fav!!!!!..........:JP(]
Fraser Avatar
August 3, 2009 at 4:37 AM
Congratulations on being featured>>James
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