Just You

Your smile does something to me Your laugh makes my head spin How you’re so patient And I don’t have to say a thing Even though I’m always overthinking How your opinion alone is reassuring And your presence, though it may not be physical, grants me peace that I’ve never experienced with an earthly man Love sometimes is beyond confusing When you’re not ready for conflicting emotions When you don’t want it because you don’t know if you can trust again You haven’t grown enough for it, maturity hasn’t caught up with you Yet it still appears from nowhere Consuming every thought you could have With fantasies that you fear will never exist With stomach twisting butterflies from the little things he does And you allowed yourself to fall off the side of a cliff for him The cliff- the stable, comfortable ground But the falling- the risky, nothing is guaranteed, falling into oblivion, but it’s comforting still for some reason I don’t crave you just purely for physical desire You make me feel safe when your arms are wrapped around me But I get too nervous to ever say that out loud I crave the emotional connection The fact that you care And sometimes I have to ignore it to not fall harder… Just the thought of you caring is enough to make my knees weak Maybe because I wouldn’t have fallen for you I’ve had thought you wouldn’t protect me, Love me, care for me, understand me, be honest with me, cherish me, and pray for me I wouldn’t have let myself fall Or so I’ve told myself But four years is a long time to think about one single person The whole time it’s been just you on my mind I don’t know what God means by it I don’t know why God brought you into my life But I’ll cherish you, even if it’s just in my heart, until the day I die I’ll wait for you as He tells me too In hopes one day it’ll be just you and me Though I’m not perfect I feel like just you were made for me