Jealous

It’s past midnight and sleep has walked out on me, yet, again. I stand in the door way to the quiet patio, now bare ... There’s a frost advisory tonight so precious plants are safely housed As I stare into the vastness of navy skies, listening to the hush It’s a beautiful autumn night, a bit chilly, but I really don’t mind Some old song is being played softly on the radio.. And I smile faintly listening to the words I turn it off, still sky gazing as my thoughts gather wings Finally, I sigh and give in to the tugging desire of my heart For it seems it will give me no respite... I am wondering how you spent your day. What delights did your eyes behold? What beauty thrilled your heart and soul? And did it bring you close to tears? Soon, jealousy overrides my melancholy However, it’s my decision not to resist; I welcome the injected pain Somehow it makes me feel more alive as it drives the numbness away I try to imagine the simple things you touch, The people around you who breathe the air that you breathe, Every cup of java which touch your lips... Leaving playful kisses, instead of me, I think of your smile so alluring which makes beautiful flowers blush... Yes, and I am jealous. That I can not deny AsI stand in the doorway, leading to my quiet patio Washed in silvery moon light casting shadows on the wall My heart fills with anxiety; shallow breaths barely escaping... Solemnly, I lean against the patio door, so needing your embrace And all I hear is your name whispered by the brisk autumn breeze! ~*~