It Was Always One-Side

I never knew if you ever thought of me So I kept my feeling to myself so for my own selfish Reason I could keep you closer toward me. But without warning you fell for another and easily My heart was broken,yet and still I carried on with that Fake smile.Never saying I love you,never telling you my Growing feeling,before I knew it you left me alone in this World,yes in this world which was so cold and heartless. My skin grew cold when I never got to say what was always On my twisting mind. When I smile I really cried,When I laughed I really was frowning,When I would look at you looking in you eyes And knew this was a feeling of disappointment since it been one-sided Since the first time we meet but now you've gone and left me in a world Which is so cold only you made it warm enough to go on. If I only could have told you the truth would you had not been running away? My heart aches my bones break my head numb,to think I feel in love with a guy who knew only how to make me cry.Just exactly what I am I? This was our farewell even if it was all one-sided just telling you now I honestly always will love you This is for the man I loved who feel's for another....and he passed away 09/29/12 saturday....May you rest in peace Saul and come back to me soon