Is Today the Day

Is today the day? Do I stay or do I finally leave? Everyday I wake up And just breathing causes me so much agony. Is today going to be the day? The day I finally say goodbye? I know somepeople might miss me But I don't know if I can stand another sleepless night I don't know if I have anymore tears to cry. To be 27 and to think about death as much as I do, I believe I'd welcome it like an old Friend. Do I take a handful of pills Or throw myself off a bridge and hope I don't wake up? These are the thoughts that go through my head When I pretend to wear a smile and be normal... Pretend I'm not in pain. Is today the day? I'll put on my mask and suffer another day. I hear that dying is easy Whoever said that wasn't wrong. Tht living is the hard part. Maybe that's why today is not The Day.