Is That Alright With You?

I've...


pushed the last month or so off my cheek, I've never seen October leave a mark


maybe it's mascara this time, smudged on my face, the leftover stain of tears...


and I slip my thumb over the area...


where he used to lay, when I wake at two a.m.


and discover the texture of despair.




He's drinking me in, the memory of us, the rooms speed,


ninety miles an hour through my memory


and our years blur, but I can still capture his smile....


if I wave my hand fast enough before


two a.m. opens her eyes


and lets me discover the tick tocking horror of reality.





If I close my eyes slowly enough he may be here, next to me


maybe I'll feel his skin and put a halt on my decisions, I'm


(not doing well, you know)


twisted behind the memories, and two a.m. is unforgiving as I wait



hopelessly



for his breath.




My calves are disappearing, I'm dissolving into nothing


this sick diet of depression


and how do I tell him I can't fly? How do I tell him...


it won't matter if I fall, I don't have


wings


anymore...


they broke at


two a.m.


when I studied the shattered feeling of


hope..
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Mckenzie Avatar
December 11, 2009 at 5:53 PM
Wow very deep emotion in this very creative style you've written. I can feel your yearning and deep despair.Peace Laura :)
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