Insomnia

My mind is filled with thoughts I don't need My eyes fill with tears while my heart bleeds As a teenager they wanted me to be sectioned and monitored With all of this on my mind, is it any wonder I have Insomnia? Tired all day, But as soon as my head hits the pillow I Lie awake Anxiety builds my thoughts up, So I fantasize about being able to hibernate A new fear for me to overcome, another obstacle for me to annihilate But I need a rest, I wish I could fly away I'm trying to remain calm in the drama But I walk in the way of harm with no armour I've got new scars on top of old ones that never finished bleeding I hear voices, even though I'm in a room on my own, with no one speaking I miss my ex, so my head forces me to think about who she's laying with Is he making her happy? Or is she faking it? I pushed her away, but she got over me quicker Isn't it funny how when you taste your own medicine, you get sicker? Depression has a hold of me and tells me I'm worthless I've attempted suicide in the past, do I deserve this? Am I a coward because I crumbled and fell a few times? Do I need to repair my heart or do I need a new mind? I need a hug, but there's no one I can tell Lying in bed wide awake, I feel the need to yell Been tired all day, and I'm in bed now But thanks to Insomnia, the last thing I'll be doing is getting my head down My mind is filled with thoughts I don't need My eyes fill with tears while my heart bleeds As a teenager they wanted me to be sectioned and monitored With all of this on my mind, is it any wonder I have Insomnia?