Inside Awaited a Boon

as a cild it hat often been the box that mattered it gave shelter and comfort and held no surprises simple cardboard and plenty of space to hide in I grew older as my tree of life branched and lured adventure excitement challenges and drawbacks and I wished for bold ribbons as I tied the knot at first roots became strong and mastered all storms good job healthy marriage and wonderful children love money security travel and a sound pension plan then she poked my carton and punctured my soul ‘it’s all your fault and I shall put our vows in a drawer’ ‘what have I done wrong’ ‘you must find out yourself’ the container became hampered the package no solace Pandora left me to fight my battle alone and confused the cellophane tape a reminder of what would not stick no ‘wishing you well card’ just abuse disrepair and rejection callous contempt silence and a toxic mix of anger and pain venomously bestowed with self-righteous heartless ingratitude the repository turned into a rock bottom prison with doubts incrimination depression and self-harm tied a string to the wrapper of morbid resolve ‘think out of the box’ suggested all reason ‘feel what is left emotions speak from inside’ meaning can be found in composed surrender I retrieved the empty shell from the dusty attic licked wounds and dried out glue into adhesion left the torn edges and sealed shredded margins self help manuals DIY kits and good fortune talking therapies medication and a kind Buddha breathed faded remains into resilience and revised dreams I was free to elope with a compassionate soulmate shared hurtful memories boudoir kindness and care embarked on a new path of passion for rudder and sail with hindsight my ex gave me a most wonderful present an unintended blessing in disguise of mad destruction liberation from vile abandonment and choice of fresh love today the parcel is full of magic abandon and wonderment blister packs cushion marvelous harmony happiness and joy ‘so thank you for bursting the bubble and giving me my Self’ 19th June 2020