Inside

Inside, it swells With all these thoughts: Ones of self doubt, Ones of anxiety, All of them tearing Me down and down And I try to Patch things up, To fix them permanently But they are all Temporary and don’t Help in the long run I want to be able To face life and Have confidence In myself, but I keep giving me Reasons to still Not trust myself My fears grow Inside of me and I try to ignore Them completely But I can’t do it And I fall Victim to myself, I end up breaking Just a little Every now and then, But that stacks Up and I can’t Even see myself Anymore in the Shattered mirror I can’t tell What I want Anymore; I can’t tell Who I am Anymore, All I know Is that I wasn’t Made to live A happily ever after, Just one filled With no hope And no true Happiness Hereafter Written on January 25, 2021