In My Head

your confusing me why does this have to be so complicated your breaking me with every smile that brings me close...i thought it brought me closer to your core now i see that it is possibly just a sweet lie as you move father and farther away from my reaching grasp soon ill be forced to pull myself back i must pull myself away from your tranqualizer because, your crushing me with your illegitimate stares ....tell me the truth its just one, one simple word do you care? i need to know you said yes in the beginning you didnt care if we hooked up now.....now that she knows you deflect my looks you nullify my touch yet there ....right there as you crush my heart there is that smile that makes me so very sad and i look away as i am confused again just tell me with everything aside forget if you are suppose to be away from me just tell me do you care? im ready to cry because i dont know anymore one night with your touch isnt enough to make me sure nor is that look tainted with sadness that mixes in your gorgeous eyes your burning in my core crushing me inside obliterating ...all that i have left i need to know so i can get unattached before i have a pre-year heart attack you are my heart attack a disease i can barely fight against it is myself i need to defend just tell me your feelings just let me know before you push me so far so far, that im dead your pushing me to the edge i dont want to live but i need to know if your love is real or is it all just in my head?