In a world where I do not exist

The world where I do not exist is only a heartbeat either way A flicker of light a trickle of tears blue turns into (grey) And it is grey not black or white A void without permission or invite Oblivious and comfortable the great filter be Forgettable too in absence of memory Yet into the grey I go to a realm of nothingness A world with no woe — Infinite in empty ignorance Energy becomes of me an atom-less mass of entropy Stretching, pulling Rising, falling upon waves of gravity Outside of time only spontaneity in this world where I strew Malleable, gaseous, shapeless, Infinitely complex, intrinsically simple Diffusion spirals inside infusion across a pulsing eternity For the greatest time I never had A netherworld that does not know sad This world where I do not exist precedes and succeeds me Come what will Come what may From where I come I go back today A spasm, a twist a breath, a death a cycle anew No void to view With nothing else to do til the grey burns back to blue