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I'm A Effing Horrible Person

I hurt him. The one person I vowed to never hurt again. The one person I was actually healing our friendship with. I hurt him. Again. I was honest with my feelings, on how I still loved him but didn't wanna ruin what we had. It hurt him. He didn't talk to me. He looked at me as if things were awkward again. I made him feel like crap, I know I did. I feel like effing crap because I made him feel that way.. I ruined everything..again.. I'm a eff up of a human being.. I don't deserve happiness, I don't deserve love.. I'm a horrible person.. And a horrible person never deserves the good in life..

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Bill Baker

Date: 12/13/2023 10:34:00 AM

Thanks for expressing your initial feels through your poetry. I hope this is a help, Eli, you are not a horrible person. This is my first visit to your poetry, but I'm going to put you on my list of people I follow. I hope you'll look at and follow my poetry also, so we can get to know each other better. A poet friend, to be, Bill

Eli Arendel
Date: 12/13/2023 1:10:00 PM

Thank you, Bill. I'll follow you as well <3 All of my poetry, as you'll read, is based on my feelings and personal experiences. I'll be happy to read your poetry as well.

Bill Baker

Date: 12/13/2023 10:31:00 AM

No way you are in the wrong. Being honest with a person is always best. It hurts some now, but it would be worst later. We are all equipped with the ability to handle truth. Leading someone on is the same as lying to them. It is the other person's responsibility to learn from the experience, grow stronger and move on with their life. When they become strong enough to accept the truth, they will forgive and friendship is possible and, in my experience, may even flourish. (See next comment).

Mat Ignacio

Date: 12/12/2023 3:20:00 PM

that's some hard introspection - i can think of horrible things/acts, but, professing the hard honest truth, though fraught with pain, does not qualify -thanks for sharing