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I'M a Big Girl Now

No matter that the sun doesn't shine today She knows every cloud will fly away No matter that her heart bleeds and feels sore She knows some day she'll smile again once more The hurt in her runs deep etched from her own blood He hurt her in the way no man ever should He tore from her a part that was hers to give He stole from her the heart she could give love with..... She was just a helpless child Feeling lost and hurt inside.... But now that I have grown And struggle with this world I'll get through I'm not alone Gone is daddy's little girl..... No matter it's far distant in her memory She still feels the shame and indignity No matter that you haunt all her days and dreams She knows she'll find the strength and survive her screams The hurt will be a part of her life always It's the only constant now it always stays It messes with her mind so she sees your face Your image always fills her full of disgrace You could have been the apple of her eye She knows you really should have been But you didn't love her right just made her cry She's seen some things that shouldn't be seen She was young and helpless then You broke her so she can't mend.... But now that I have grown And struggle with this world I'll get through I'm not alone Gone is daddy's little girl..... I'm a big girl now..... I'm not daddys little girl.... I'm a big girl now..... No more daddy's.... little girl....

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Date: 11/27/2017 8:44:00 PM
You shouldn’t feel the shame and indignity, you did nothing wrong...easy for me to say, right.
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Jane Shields
Date: 11/28/2017 3:46:00 AM
I don't feel the shame any longer, but it ate through me for many years. Now I feel nothing towards him, no love, hate or anything. It's like he never existed. I can cope that way. x
Date: 11/27/2017 4:11:00 PM
So very heartbreaking. I feel the overwhelming sadness and loss in this amazing write Jane!! So well done! ~ Judy
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Jane Shields
Date: 11/27/2017 4:57:00 PM
Thank you Judy. Sorry it's sad, but it had to be written. x

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