I'Ll Wait In This New Space

The weight floated from me Just from an expression on his face Something had changed I'd spent so many hours seeing the wrong intent Something other than genuine affection Then there it was, light shone on him in the right way He smiled at the right moment Whatever I was looking for unexpectedly was there He'd had no reason to be nice in that moment All the moments leading to it were wrong I was unlikely to be receptive in that moment, I'd just reminded myself of everything that made me not fit here I suppose he validated I should talk about what had hurt me in any way I needed to That was all, but he meant it and along with it acknowledging how wrong things had been The only gift I want is to be seen and heard (And maybe cherry coke and vegan marshmallows and chocolate buttons and maybe there's a beer with my name on it and we'll plan what gigs to go to and go and I'll wear an outlandish outfit for getting on the train in the village but looks great once we're in the city centre and I'll exist again)